The bottom of my mental health has dropped out this week and I'm feeling pretty lost. I seen my counselor today. I was feeling alot of anxioty and on edge when I went. Not long into the session I just broke down. I thought being there would be better because maybe he would be able to see what I'm going threw. He just kept saying I was thinking irrationally and I needed to think more rationally. I couldn't get him to understand I was having a hard time even to think normally yet alone rationally. He was like a broken record and I just started to feel even worse. To top it all off he keeps pushing aa on me like it's the end all be all that's going to fix me. I finally snapped and told him I'm not going it's not for me. Some people need it. I completely understand that. I tried it when I first got sober. I just do better on my own. It kinda seemed like since it all worked for him shoe horning everyone threw this same bullshit is going to work for everyone else. To say the least I left there feeling more miserable and lost. I came home and was just ready to give up. I layed in bed and cried my self to sleep. I slept for 6 hours. Now that I'm up I've been having waves of anxioty and feeling depression settling in even further. So I decided the best thing I could do instead of going back to sleep is to come on here. With all that being said I just don't know where to go next or what to do. I do better for a little bit in life and just wind up back in this miserable state. Is this a normal thing with recovery of ptsd or am I just missing something?