Whirlwind
MyPTSD Pro
I'm meeting people and involved in a bunch of community stuff, volunteering etc. I'm wonderfully busy and engaged, this was how I used to be, my "normal" :-)
I thought those parts of me were gone. I suppose a positive testament to the fact that despite the trauma we're "still in there".
I'm getting to know people and as I do....they want to know me better.
I had a life, friends, career once and then it is like time stopped and I disappeared into my DV for such a long time.
I was so isolated and lonely in my DV looking back I don't know how I did it. I still remember looking at our phone and realizing I no longer had a single personal contact. It was all his in "our" phone.
Amazingly today if I want to have a coffee with someone, I just make a call. My front door swings open and shut all the time as folks swing by, my phone is full of contacts. I love it. :-)
But I have 2 big "life resume gaps" (FOO & DV). I moved to a new city so that helped a lot and I know eventually my resume gaps won't matter. I hate having secrets but I feel very protective about my past.
Folks start to realize everyone in my life is "new" and my former career is obvious -- and then the questions of why I stopped. I have a good cover story but it is a fabrication. I reconnected with someone from my past but its tricky, they knew the former me as did their family. Thankfully for now they are just happy I am "back". But the questions are getting deeper as it does.
Looking at myself I have "red flags" lack of history etc.
How do they do it in witness protection programs with a new identity? LOL
Does anyone have some experience or thoughts to share?
Whirlwind
I thought those parts of me were gone. I suppose a positive testament to the fact that despite the trauma we're "still in there".
I'm getting to know people and as I do....they want to know me better.
I had a life, friends, career once and then it is like time stopped and I disappeared into my DV for such a long time.
I was so isolated and lonely in my DV looking back I don't know how I did it. I still remember looking at our phone and realizing I no longer had a single personal contact. It was all his in "our" phone.
Amazingly today if I want to have a coffee with someone, I just make a call. My front door swings open and shut all the time as folks swing by, my phone is full of contacts. I love it. :-)
But I have 2 big "life resume gaps" (FOO & DV). I moved to a new city so that helped a lot and I know eventually my resume gaps won't matter. I hate having secrets but I feel very protective about my past.
Folks start to realize everyone in my life is "new" and my former career is obvious -- and then the questions of why I stopped. I have a good cover story but it is a fabrication. I reconnected with someone from my past but its tricky, they knew the former me as did their family. Thankfully for now they are just happy I am "back". But the questions are getting deeper as it does.
Looking at myself I have "red flags" lack of history etc.
How do they do it in witness protection programs with a new identity? LOL
Does anyone have some experience or thoughts to share?
Whirlwind