KwanYingirl
MyPTSD Pro
i spend an inordinate time reflecting on my compulsions and impulses and how they are the result of having PTSD or do they feed it? For instance, cutting, that delirious compulsion. I have worked hard to diminish cutting. In my defense, I think I am compelled by flooding that’s when it happens. I know what I’m doing, but I’m only partially connected to the compulsion.
Or, I may be anticipating the onset of compulsions due to triggers I can’t avoid (family, hiking in the woods, difficult clients, disappointments. If it’s anticipation, I feel compelled to shop. Now, maybe that’s impulsive, but I don’t really know. What i do know, at least for my peace of mind, I am open to suggestions as to how the hell can I live my life free of this nagging compulsivness.
My overspending has gotten to the point that I must stop buying shoes and earrings and guitar aids. You know, it’s easy to change the strings with nothing more than pliers. Then I land on a YouTube video on the proper care of the instrument. The dude on the video has a rest for the neck, a 3- in-1 tool that pulls plugs, snips the extra wire on the string. Then he conditioned the fretboard with this precious oil that can only be used on the frets, then another oil to polish the body. Well I immediately bought it all on Amazon. Stuff like this is typical of me during stressful days or perhaps several times a day.
Or, I may be anticipating the onset of compulsions due to triggers I can’t avoid (family, hiking in the woods, difficult clients, disappointments. If it’s anticipation, I feel compelled to shop. Now, maybe that’s impulsive, but I don’t really know. What i do know, at least for my peace of mind, I am open to suggestions as to how the hell can I live my life free of this nagging compulsivness.
My overspending has gotten to the point that I must stop buying shoes and earrings and guitar aids. You know, it’s easy to change the strings with nothing more than pliers. Then I land on a YouTube video on the proper care of the instrument. The dude on the video has a rest for the neck, a 3- in-1 tool that pulls plugs, snips the extra wire on the string. Then he conditioned the fretboard with this precious oil that can only be used on the frets, then another oil to polish the body. Well I immediately bought it all on Amazon. Stuff like this is typical of me during stressful days or perhaps several times a day.