I have been suffering from ptsd for 14 years and am at my bitter end any feedback would help
I survived a crane accident that killed the 6 other people in my crew. survivor guilt sucks. I have lost my family my sanity my self esteem etc. etc. etc. I don't know where to go from here. I am going through the same spectrum of emotionsHello, my name is Deb.
I have long standing PTSD from combat in Iraq while in the Army. Includes war related things and sexual trauma. have had treatment on and off since that time and currently am in intensive CPT therapy along with meds.
I have isolated myself for years from others despite being surrounded by other people. My relationship with my spouse sucks, I can't work, I suck at parenting, and I feel like I walk around in circles all day.
I hate myself and who I am. I think of the person I should have been and it is devastating. It feels like I just can not move forward towards healing. I haven't given up and I will continue to fight the fight for healing.
I am here to be among others who understand what this feels like. I just don't think people get it until they live it.