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Message: <blockquote data-quote="OakTree123" data-source="post: 1721241" data-attributes="member: 50353">That totally makes sense. I'm sorry that you aren't getting the support you need. And I'm sorry that your anxiety and depression are intensified because you feel the need to isolate. I can totally understand all of those feelings! It definitely makes me feel like the people I've opened up to aren't listening. I have been isolating myself too. Currently I feel like I have to isolate myself from my friends. I feel like if I don't isolate myself, then I have to pretend that everything is okay when in reality I feel like I'm in the worst mental health state I have ever been in. But I feel like I have to pretend that I'm okay, because when I open up to them I don't feel like I'm being supported in the way I want. It was beginning to damage my friendships, and so I started isolating myself from them. It's like a bad cycle - isolation, feeling upset, trying to re-connect with friends, getting hurt, isolation. Maybe you can relate to all these feelings? I'm sorry you've been dealing with so much! Ugh, yes, I get nightmares all the time. For whatever reason, I have a lot of nightmares that are not necessarily about what has happened to me, but instead are just a lot of frightening things that have nothing to do with what happened. Like I have a lot of supernatural nightmares (like with possessed people and haunted houses) and nightmares about people I don't know dying...but I rarely dream about my abuser. At night, I get really anxious before bed. I'm not sure if it has to do with the fact that I get nightmares so frequently or if it's because other portions of my abuse. It's so exhausting; I'll be tired all day and then, once night time rolls around, I am wide awake and can't sleep and often times become really anxious. Do you feel that way at night too?</blockquote>

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