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Message: <blockquote data-quote="woodsy1" data-source="post: 1710961" data-attributes="member: 50174">You are welcome.  I lived 6 years in that state of never being happy, but also in completely debilitating depression, PTSD, anxiety, etc. It was 24/7/365 torment.  I thought I was going to white knuckle my way through the rest of my life.  Then something changed. I decided I could not accept that state of existing for the rest of my life.  I got off my couch and started trying everything to find something pleasant in life, something worth living for.  It didn't come over night.  It took a lot of trial and error.  I'm still working it out day by day, sometimes moment by moment.  For me, the more I honestly face my thoughts and emotions, the better I feel.Im seeing a therapist now.  I'm forcing myself to socialize.  I'm participating in these forums.  It's not any one thing and it certainly doesn't come as quickly as we'd like.  But it comes.Im just sharing these thoughts to give you hope.  The hardest part for me was thinking there was no hope.  After I heard enough people say it got better for them, I realized it must be possible for me too!We're all the same flesh and blood.  If other people can recover, then I can too.  That was my first hope.You can heal and recover too.  It may not seem like it now, but you will heal.  You are taking steps in the right direction.  You will soon experience a little tiny bit of hope, peace, joy, something positive.  Maybe just a laugh.  When you do, hold on to that. It's the beginning of healing.The rest comes in waves and windows.  Waves of crushing agony, grief, emotional overwhelm or numbness, ugly stuff.  Windows of light and peace.  Typically the windows become more frequent and open wider over time.Hang in there!Woodsy</blockquote>

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