Sufferer PTSD From Hospital (After injury accident)

Freddyt

Learning
I am a 56 year old male living in Canada. Thanks to macho manly conditioning and a lack of people in my life who said "you need help with that", I have had PTSD problems for 45 years. It started playing shinny hockey in the schoolyard at 11 years old. A stick came up and my best friend accidentally hit me in my right eye. The school got me to the hospital because I was bleeding but the real problem was hemorrhaging inside the eye. Both eyes were covered, as is typical in any eye injury and I only have a few lucid memories from the next couple of weeks.
Somewhere in there was the real painful hidden memory that is a huge part of my problems. My psychologist and I found it while I was doing EMDR therapy a couple months ago and when we did the wake up in the night soaked in sweat heart going a hundred miles an hour nightmare that I have been waking up from for the last 45 years made sense at last.
At about 32 years old I was diagnosed with Addison's Disease, what we know now is a stress induced autoimmune condition. Having the wrong doctor meant it went undiagnosed until I had lost 70 pounds and walked into my wife's doctors office with blood pressure at 60 over 40.
The trail of opioid addiction (3 times), pain, and frustration at failing memory, headaches, back and neck pain, and lack of sleep and so much more drove me to look for help about a year ago. It was difficult getting appointments and I was helping mom out doctors appointments, cancer surgery, recovery, chemo, and everything else did not help my anxiety either.

So here I am, at home, doing my best to fight down anxiety, social phobias, and more. Thank god I live in Canada as I now use cannabis in several forms and they help keep me on a more even keel and keep me away from opioids.
 

ladee

MyPTSD Pro
Welcome @Freddyt! Glad to see you here reaching out. Sorry for the reasons. None of us want to belong to this club but here we are.

Hope you find support and kindness here. I have. And wonder at times had I not had this forum to come to if I would have survived last year. Plus all the other years I've been here.

Take your time and look around. Lots of information and many people here that will relate. If not to your specific issues, we will relate to the feelings.

Hope you find this a home away from home.
 
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