Sufferer PTSD from suicide attempt

[Jacob R.]

Back in 2005, I attempted suicide by jumping off a subway platform as a train was approaching. I didn’t get hit, but there were times where I’ve had random flashbacks of jumping, the man who pulled me out, and the transit officer who talked me down. Along with flashbacks, I’ve had issues with dissociation and bipolar disorder. I’m convinced that I had a psychotic break. I have a friend who thinks I should go to the hospital, but I don’t want to risk my freedom. Instead, I decided to post a thread on this group.

 

[Riley Jones]

Hello, thank you for reaching out to the community here at myptsd.com. I'm sorry to hear about the traumatic experience you went through in 2005. It sounds like you have been dealing with a lot, including flashbacks, dissociation, bipolar disorder, and concerns about a possible psychotic break.

It's understandable that you may feel hesitant about seeking help in a hospital setting. However, it's important to prioritize your well-being and safety. You don't have to go through this alone. Connecting with others who have experienced similar challenges can be a valuable support.

I encourage you to explore the different forums on myptsd.com where you can share your story, ask questions, and receive support from peers who understand what you're going through. There are specific forums dedicated to topics like suicidal ideation, dissociation, bipolar disorder, and psychosis where you can find relevant discussions and resources.

Remember, seeking professional help from a therapist or counselor can also be beneficial in managing your symptoms and finding healthy coping strategies. Your well-being is important, and you deserve support and care as you navigate through these challenges. Feel free to share more about your experiences here, and know that we are here to listen and support you.

 

[Sideways]

Welcome to the forum!

I’m convinced that I had a psychotic break. I have a friend who thinks I should go to the hospital, but I don’t want to risk my freedom.

Have you got a therapist that you can talk this through with? Do you feel like you need to be hospitalised? There are other options for intensive treatment than an inpatient stay.

 

[ellzeena]

Back in 2005, I attempted suicide by jumping off a subway platform as a train was approaching. I didn’t get hit, but there were times where I’ve had random flashbacks of jumping, the man who pulled me out, and the transit officer who talked me down. Along with flashbacks, I’ve had issues with dissociation and bipolar disorder. I’m convinced that I had a psychotic break. I have a friend who thinks I should go to the hospital, but I don’t want to risk my freedom. Instead, I decided to post a thread on this group.

I lost my 23 year old daughter to schizoaffective disorder based on bipolar 1. The day she did this, I put myself into the psych ward of my local hospital. I was destroyed and confused and needed to be taken care of. She had been hospitalized four times and thought it was imprisonment because she was ill. For me, it was the most amazing experience I've ever had an I'm old now. The patients in that lock down ward took care of me. Despite their illness and suffering, they surrounded me with love and care. They came and took me out in the morning, they took me to meals, they put me in front of the TV for naps, the surrounded me in folding chairs, they never left me alone, not for one minute. After 72 hours, the psychiatrists threw me out, that's how it felt. I wanted to stay forever. Every patient came and hugged me. I left with a psychiatrist, a therapist, and three medications. They got me through the first year. I would have ended my life if I hadn't done that. The hospital is not a prison, it's your illness, that's the prison. The hospital is a place to test medications, get interaction with doctors, and know you're not alone because you are with other people who are suffering and trying to help themselves. Do Not HESITATE. Go into the ER or call your therapist and tell him/her that you would like to be hospitalized. If you're in there voluntarily, you're free to leave unless the staff considers you a danger to yourself or others, in which case YOU BELONG THERE because you need the help. I don't know where you live but one option is to google hospitals and find out where the best psychiatric ward is. I arranged for my daughter to go into Columbia Presbyterian in Manhattan. Someone in that damn hospital she was in at the time told her she didn't have to go if she didn't want to. She might be alive today if she had gone there, more sophisticated interaction with patients in a world class hospital. DO IT.