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RunningPrincess89
In my past job, my boss attempted to "constructively discharge" me and then ultimately fired me. In between, I was subjected to constant bullying by boss and a coworker, nitpicking of my facial expressions or responses (including attempting to collect Intel on my "bad behavior" from other colleagues and twisting many situations to show me in a bad light, sending copious emails documenting all of my so-called issues!), and, worst of all, being subjected to mandatory closed door meetings where I was emotionally abused and screamed and cursed at, even extending after work hours. I always tried to be polite, but in some situations, I was cold toward my boss and coworker -- which seems defensible given what was going on! I was well liked by all other people and teams I interacted with and I'm very capable at my job. The rest of the organization was in a reorg with no HR and there were documented issues with both my boss and the coworker (who had been demoted from running a large team due to fraud, but I believe my boss protected them) before I joined the team. After I was fired, I ended up being able to collect severance because my boss violated company policy via some of this behavior.
I have been in a great job for a few years and recovered a lot. However, now I am looking to move on to a new opportunity and the process of job interviews is bringing up PTSD symptoms. I am struggling with dissociation, getting emotionally triggered (panic, sudden tears), and avoidance. I am especially struggling to talk about myself and my skills because I have a low opinion of myself after that experience -- who is to say the new job wouldn't trigger me and I would act "rude" or "cold" or whatever my old boss said about me (after pushing me to the edge!).
I am looking for support (and a pep talk) and self help resources. I am going to try to white knuckle it through this interview process. :)
I have been in a great job for a few years and recovered a lot. However, now I am looking to move on to a new opportunity and the process of job interviews is bringing up PTSD symptoms. I am struggling with dissociation, getting emotionally triggered (panic, sudden tears), and avoidance. I am especially struggling to talk about myself and my skills because I have a low opinion of myself after that experience -- who is to say the new job wouldn't trigger me and I would act "rude" or "cold" or whatever my old boss said about me (after pushing me to the edge!).
I am looking for support (and a pep talk) and self help resources. I am going to try to white knuckle it through this interview process. :)