PTSD: Patience, Time, Strength and Determination.

Ottoni1979

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Maybe PTSD it's like the seasons of the year the tides of the sea The wind in the trees it can never be explained in a way that everybody will understand. I see it it as a thorny path, does that sound cliche? Maybe it does, we always have ways of describing our own unique interpretation of this disease. Because this is what I call it because I don't pretend to have all the answers but I'm also not prepared to succumb to it either. Everybody's experience of this is unique your own feelings and thoughts and emotions your own attachments your own dis- associations your own expectations your own desires your own loves your own likes and dislikes and fears.

I started this journey a year and a half ago and to be honest if I had known it was going to be like this I would never have started it am I grateful for starting it?honestly yes some days I regret starting it Somedays I rejoice from starting it, I never envisaged to having to to divulge so much of my soul in therapy I've come to realise that my PTSD is so unique to me, and in other ways isn't

So long I've begged or needed a reason to understand it to give it some meaning to make me want to understand it, dissect it for it to be written down in a book, to tell me this is how you deal with it this is what you do with it this is how you feel this is how you manage it but there is no book and how to manage your own feelings. If you will allow me, to maybe tell you more of my story more of my story because trust me this isn't the end of the story this isn't even the beginning this is just a realisation that for a long time something was very wrong deep inside and it's only now I'm truly beginning to understand how difficult and yet rewarding this journey will be.
 
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I like your explanation and your title!
I see it it as a thorny path
Funny you should say, me also! A thorny and rocky path. I was just reminded days ago, saw a beautiful picture I always loved, where the thorns and brambles are cleared.
honestly yes some days I regret starting it Somedays I rejoice from starting itl, I never envisaged to having to to divulge so much of my soul in therapy I've come to realise that my PTSD is so unique to me, and in other ways isn't

Whethis is just a realisation that for a long time something was very wrong deep inside and it's only now I'm truly beginning to understand how difficult and yet rewarding this journey will be.
^^ I relate very much to to these above also.

When all is said and done I'm still glad, it's the field bought for the pearl inside. But it sure has been and is a very difficult and demanding and uncertain journey to get to and through the field, sometimes it seems to take the last drop of faith or strength to persevere or keep going forward. Baby steps..

Welcome to you @Ottoni1979 ! ☺️
 
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