My heart goes out to all with PTSD and their supporters!!! It can be a very difficult condition to live with! I know this because I'm a mom that was diagnosed with PTSD in 1989 due to having a neglected/dysfunctional childhood (my mother had TBI after being struck by a drunk driver - I was left to care for her at a young age) and later being in an abusive relationship.
Through many years of counseling and practicing meditation, I've done well over the last 20+ years. My PTSD symptoms rarely occur unless triggered by a wholly unforeseen event. When they do emerge I'm usually able to avoid going down a rabbit hole for very long. But lately, staying away from the rabbit hole seems to be getting tougher . . .
The divorce from my ex-husband affected both of my children greatly. He was and still is a "hands-off" parent, minimally involved in their lives. My 38-year-old daughter began hanging out with the "wrong crowd" in her teens and left home at 18. She returned home in desperation when she was 20. That ended after she struck me for not agreeing to allow her BF to also move in. We (dtr and I) have been estranged since 2003.
My son, after going through a rough patch in his 20's got counseling. He's now 36. I'm proud of the man he has become - engaged to marry a wonderful woman, witty, compassionate, and loved by babies and old folks alike. My daughter has gone through many relationships that ended badly though.
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My daughter's last relationship ended when her then BF threatened to shoot himself in the head if she'd leave him. The gun went off accidentally and he died in her arms. My daughter has had severer PTSD ever since the incident which was about eight years ago. According to my son, my dtr recently admitted to him that she has been doing meth for the last five years. She had a psychotic episode that resulted in hospitalization by self-referral last weekend. My son picked her up the following day. She was released because she became disengaged, irritable, stubborn and didn't want to stay. She wants residential/inpatient detox and mental health treatment which the hospital determined she wasn't "bad" enough to receive.
My son asked me to research other facilities and their admission policies, etc. He says he feels compelled to try and help her because if he didn't and she committed suicide he wouldn't be able to forgive himself. I want to help my son to help my daughter. I'd like to know that my daughter is getting help - even if she never talked to me again. But I can feel my body becoming more tense and my mind more anxiety stricken because of the added emotional and mental stress over what's going on. I can feel myself becoming more susceptible to my own PTSD symptoms rising more easily. I feel as if I'm in a quandary near fast moving quicksand and unsure of which way to turn.
Kind regards and hugs to all PTSD sufferers and the loved ones that support them <3
Thanks for reading/listening - I'm sorry this was looooong :-|
Through many years of counseling and practicing meditation, I've done well over the last 20+ years. My PTSD symptoms rarely occur unless triggered by a wholly unforeseen event. When they do emerge I'm usually able to avoid going down a rabbit hole for very long. But lately, staying away from the rabbit hole seems to be getting tougher . . .
The divorce from my ex-husband affected both of my children greatly. He was and still is a "hands-off" parent, minimally involved in their lives. My 38-year-old daughter began hanging out with the "wrong crowd" in her teens and left home at 18. She returned home in desperation when she was 20. That ended after she struck me for not agreeing to allow her BF to also move in. We (dtr and I) have been estranged since 2003.
My son, after going through a rough patch in his 20's got counseling. He's now 36. I'm proud of the man he has become - engaged to marry a wonderful woman, witty, compassionate, and loved by babies and old folks alike. My daughter has gone through many relationships that ended badly though.
. . .
My daughter's last relationship ended when her then BF threatened to shoot himself in the head if she'd leave him. The gun went off accidentally and he died in her arms. My daughter has had severer PTSD ever since the incident which was about eight years ago. According to my son, my dtr recently admitted to him that she has been doing meth for the last five years. She had a psychotic episode that resulted in hospitalization by self-referral last weekend. My son picked her up the following day. She was released because she became disengaged, irritable, stubborn and didn't want to stay. She wants residential/inpatient detox and mental health treatment which the hospital determined she wasn't "bad" enough to receive.
My son asked me to research other facilities and their admission policies, etc. He says he feels compelled to try and help her because if he didn't and she committed suicide he wouldn't be able to forgive himself. I want to help my son to help my daughter. I'd like to know that my daughter is getting help - even if she never talked to me again. But I can feel my body becoming more tense and my mind more anxiety stricken because of the added emotional and mental stress over what's going on. I can feel myself becoming more susceptible to my own PTSD symptoms rising more easily. I feel as if I'm in a quandary near fast moving quicksand and unsure of which way to turn.
Kind regards and hugs to all PTSD sufferers and the loved ones that support them <3
Thanks for reading/listening - I'm sorry this was looooong :-|
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