I'm a 26 year old female who developed PTSD from years of phsyical and sexual abuse. It was at its worst about 4 years ago, when my parents disowned me. I was completely unable to function, had to temporarily drop out of school and quit my part-time job. Since then I have slowly regained control of my life through therapy, finding the right medications, taking up running, and creating healthy relationships. I can say that for the past year I've been mostly happy, which you all will understand is saying A LOT! I was back in school and getting great grades, I was working again, and I got engaged! My fiance is a wonderful man, he is actually a therapist who works mainly with kids and is the kindest, most compassionate person I know. He and his family have been with me though everything and have redefined my view of family and love. I was truly proud of myself for all the progress I'd made and was feeling extrodinarily hopeful about the future.
But recently something has triggered by PTSD and it feels like it coming back with a vengence. I'll explain this in detail in another post. But I'm miserable, losing weight and struggling to function again. Maybe I had kidded myself into thinking I'd never have major issues with it again, but this sudden resurgance has hit me like a ton of bricks.
I don't want my life to become derailed again. I want to be temporary. I know I have it in me to beat this, because I have in the past. I know it will never be gone, I know there will always be bad days, but I want to get back to where I was - managing my symptoms in a way that allowed me to live a full, happy life. I'm here because I'm looking for some support and advice from others who are experinecing the same thing, whether your PTSD comes from abuse, combat, or any other trauma.
A little more about me: I'm an art student - art is my passion and (I like to think) I'm pretty decent at it. I also love history and was studying history before changing my major to art. I'm an avid runner who has run half-marathons and would eventually like to do a full. Running has been the most theraputic thing for me. I'm also an animal lover and have two dogs - a chocolate lab an a miniature schnauzer, both of whom I adopted from resuces.
But recently something has triggered by PTSD and it feels like it coming back with a vengence. I'll explain this in detail in another post. But I'm miserable, losing weight and struggling to function again. Maybe I had kidded myself into thinking I'd never have major issues with it again, but this sudden resurgance has hit me like a ton of bricks.
I don't want my life to become derailed again. I want to be temporary. I know I have it in me to beat this, because I have in the past. I know it will never be gone, I know there will always be bad days, but I want to get back to where I was - managing my symptoms in a way that allowed me to live a full, happy life. I'm here because I'm looking for some support and advice from others who are experinecing the same thing, whether your PTSD comes from abuse, combat, or any other trauma.
A little more about me: I'm an art student - art is my passion and (I like to think) I'm pretty decent at it. I also love history and was studying history before changing my major to art. I'm an avid runner who has run half-marathons and would eventually like to do a full. Running has been the most theraputic thing for me. I'm also an animal lover and have two dogs - a chocolate lab an a miniature schnauzer, both of whom I adopted from resuces.