OptimisticRealist
Learning
I'm usually on the supporter's side, but this is about my own struggles. I witnessed multiple instances of domestic abuse of my best friend/girlfriend by her ex when she tried to divorce him in Jan of 2019, then I actually helped her leave him for real in May 2019, after which he threatened to kill me, stalked us, chased us in cars, came to my mom's house looking for her and scared my mom, scared my brother, and my girlfriend was so afraid he would find me and kill me she wouldn't let me go to work alone for several weeks. I do lawn care and can't see the street and do my job, so she would sit in the car and keep lookout. I thought I was fine, no symptoms, just did what needed doing for our safety, but for the past several months, the few times I've seen him in person, I have terrible panic attacks and anxiety that lasts for days afterwards. I saw him Sunday night unexpectedly, in the house that I got my girlfriend so she could be free from him financially too, he appeared out of nowhere to help with the kids. I can't get a grip and just needed to vent here because I know everyone here will understand