Upside Down Eagle
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Not quite sure where to put this.
I have a question related to purity and cleanliness, and to Christianity (although other religions feature similar ideas).
I´d appreciate input from Christians specially or those who were brought up with it.
When I was small I always felt "contaminated" by the sins of my mother and dad, who were living an awful life. Contaminated due to their abuse, since I could not defend myself from them.
I´ve since changed a good deal and restored much of that innocence that I lost back then. However this society we live in, I perceive it as impure. People here worship materialism and nonsense.
There are people who retreat from society altogether and go live in monasteries or even caves. The idea is that the clutter and noise of society then disappears and you can truly listen to God.
The life in a cave does not appeal to me, and I do not think I want to spend my entire life in a monastery. However I hate going outside, even leaving my house, due to the clutter (and impurity) that I perceive outside of my house.
I feel like it would "contaminate" me and I´d be unable to retain that sense of innocence.
Maybe that sounds nuts but I would appreciate your thoughts.
I have a question related to purity and cleanliness, and to Christianity (although other religions feature similar ideas).
I´d appreciate input from Christians specially or those who were brought up with it.
When I was small I always felt "contaminated" by the sins of my mother and dad, who were living an awful life. Contaminated due to their abuse, since I could not defend myself from them.
I´ve since changed a good deal and restored much of that innocence that I lost back then. However this society we live in, I perceive it as impure. People here worship materialism and nonsense.
There are people who retreat from society altogether and go live in monasteries or even caves. The idea is that the clutter and noise of society then disappears and you can truly listen to God.
The life in a cave does not appeal to me, and I do not think I want to spend my entire life in a monastery. However I hate going outside, even leaving my house, due to the clutter (and impurity) that I perceive outside of my house.
I feel like it would "contaminate" me and I´d be unable to retain that sense of innocence.
Maybe that sounds nuts but I would appreciate your thoughts.