Undiagnosed Pushed past the ‘functional’ line

[Precipice Dweller]

Checking things out here and posting for first time at my daughter's recommendation. What to say. There have been quite a few major traumas this spin of the karmic wheel and I managed to roll with most of them until a few years back. I wasn't doing great, but I was functional. This last one pushed me past a line though, and damn is it hard to pretend to be normal. Therapy never really helped, nor did meds. Not that I mean to question their value to those who do find therapy and/or meds help, just it never did much for me. Meditation is a good thing. MM helps a lot. Softens the flashbacks, takes the sharp edges off the panic attacks. FWIW, that's "hello."

 

[Riley Jones]

Checking things out here and posting for first time at my daughter's recommendation. What to say. There have been quite a few major traumas this spin of the karmic wheel and I managed to roll with most of them until a few years back. I wasn't doing great, but I was functional. This last one pushed me past a line though, and damn is it hard to pretend to be normal. Therapy never really helped, nor did meds. Not that I mean to question their value to those who do find therapy and/or meds help, just it never did much for me. Meditation is a good thing. MM helps a lot. Softens the flashbacks, takes the sharp edges off the panic attacks. FWIW, that's "hello."

Hello and welcome to myptsd.com! I'm glad you decided to reach out and join our community at the recommendation of your daughter. It sounds like you've been through a lot of challenging experiences, and I want you to know that you're not alone.

It can be incredibly difficult to navigate life after experiencing major traumas, and it's completely normal to struggle with pretending to be "normal." Sometimes, the impact of trauma can push us past our limits, and it can feel overwhelming. It's important to remember that healing is a process, and everyone's journey is unique.

While therapy and medication may not have been effective for you personally, it's great to hear that meditation and mindfulness (MM) have been helpful. It's amazing how certain techniques and practices can provide some relief and help soften the intensity of flashbacks and panic attacks. Feel free to share more about your experiences with MM if you'd like, as there may be others in the community who would benefit from hearing your insights.

In addition to finding support here, it's essential to consider seeking professional help if you haven't already. A trauma-informed therapist who specializes in PTSD or complex PTSD (CPTSD) could provide valuable guidance and support tailored to your specific needs. They can also explore different modalities and approaches beyond traditional therapy that may be more effective for you.

Let me assure you that our community is a safe and understanding place. Here on myptsd.com, you'll find forums dedicated to various topics related to PTSD and CPTSD, including support discussions, coping strategies, and personal stories. Connecting with others who have experienced similar challenges can be incredibly validating and can provide a sense of belonging.

Thank you for reaching out and sharing your "hello" with us. I encourage you to take a closer look at the different forums and engage with others. Remember, we're here to support you every step of the way.

 

[Sideways]

Welcome to the forum - hope the karmic wheel spins in your favour the next time round!

 

[arfie]

hello precipice dweller. welcome to the forum. i call myself, "a fringe dweller" because my crowd phobia keeps me forever on the fringe of life, close to the cleanest exit points. to my socially distant senses, more than 2 is a crowd. well. . . i reckon the 4 people i live with might be the exception to that rule.

gentle empathy on how devastatingly fast and hard the ptsd dam can break. once the dam breaks, there is no getting the flood back into the emotional reservoir. my case is extreme, but, more than half a century into my own recovery, i don't believe that a few years is very long into any recovery. oftentimes, tools and approaches that didn't work on first effort leave seeds which sprout to create the mysterious elements needed to be more effective in later go-rounds. it's often worth revisiting stuff i previously declared a failure. the healing mysteries are, indeed, mysterious.

or so it is for me, but every healing journey is unique. . .

steadying support while you find your own healing path. welcome aboard.

 

[Muttly]

Welcome to the forum. It's a good place. Sorry that events brought you here.

 

[Friday]

Welcome to the community!

 

[PlainJane]

Welcome :)

 

[Precipice Dweller]

Gentle thanks to everyone for the welcome. I think I like this place. Still scary, but that's me and my goofy ass reflexive panic. I wish you each continued success on your paths. Mine seems to be unlearning maladaptive nonsense. That is a step.