I previously posted about wanting to be affectionate with my friend. Though I realized it was due to being a trauma state after a falling out with my previous therapist that I had negative transference with, it did make me wonder if I do like girls or not, and if I do have a crush on my best friend. How do one know if their attraction isn’t the result of past thinking that one has to be sexual with those who are nice to you, or if it’s genuine attraction? I do find men physically attractive; however, I’m equally scared to have sex with them as I am with girls. But with girls I still seek out affection. I wish the past didn’t affect me and I just knew what I actually liked.