When I think of sharing it with someone (my therapist) I feel ashamed. If it's real, I'm ashamed that it happened, and if it's not, I'm ashamed that I could think of such a thing.
BrownEyes, you've put to words what I was feeling at that time. After I told my friend, it was five years before I told anyone else. That was my therapist, after I wrote it down to share with him. You are right, it is amazing how much so many of us have in common!
When you are ready, talking through it will be a tough but important journey for you. And I will definitely be rooting for you along the way.