arfie
MyPTSD Pro
i am a child sex trafficking survivor. i escaped that nightmare nearly half a century ago, but i don't really expect to ever be "cured." being sold into prostitution by your parents leaves some serious and enduring injuries in the psyche. i am not in active pro psychotherapy at this time, but i take my daily therapy maintenance, especially peer support, quite seriously. i believe an ounce of prevention is worth WAY more than a pound of cure. the minutes i invest on therapy maintenance, here and there throughout the day, cost me far less than the unpredictable time and agony of digging myself out of yet another psychotic break.
in 2018, when i was awarded my "pro" ranking, this site was on the verge of becoming a trusted node in my therapy support network. the ranking hit my social anxiety like a sarcastic honoring of just how badly i was injured during my years of child prostitution. i decided to simply set the trigger event aside and move on. way back in 2018, live peer support was readily available and i, personally, get more out of real time support than virtual support, anyway.
fast forward to year two of the covidic era and real time support has gone virtual. does virtual still mean, "almost?" i'm back and wondering if it is time to process that 2018 trigger event. why am i so bothered by my "pro" ranking here. my therapy maintenance is not a video game.
in 2018, when i was awarded my "pro" ranking, this site was on the verge of becoming a trusted node in my therapy support network. the ranking hit my social anxiety like a sarcastic honoring of just how badly i was injured during my years of child prostitution. i decided to simply set the trigger event aside and move on. way back in 2018, live peer support was readily available and i, personally, get more out of real time support than virtual support, anyway.
fast forward to year two of the covidic era and real time support has gone virtual. does virtual still mean, "almost?" i'm back and wondering if it is time to process that 2018 trigger event. why am i so bothered by my "pro" ranking here. my therapy maintenance is not a video game.