JulietteRising
Learning
It's been a while since I have last posted. I've been dealing with life and things so much better these days. I have met the sweetest, caring, sensitive, and loving man I could ever hope to find. Everything is wonderful. Yet I keep remembering how I have been hurt in the past: sexually abused as a child, raped at 15, and mentally manipulated 6 months ago. I have no doubt Juan is being truthful in expressing his love to me, and I to him. Despite being the happiest I ever thought I could be, I am afraid of being hurt which is making me want to run away. I don't want the miseries of my past to literally f*ck up the one thing is this world that seems honest, true, and supportive with a love and passion I only dreamed of ever finding.
Why am I wanting to run away from something so wonderful? I have never experienced such consideration or kindness or love from a man, or even another human being. It scares me that I could screw things up because I have never been treated with such respect before. How do I handle this? I don't want to lose him. I don't want to scare him off because of the hurt inflicted on my from others.
Anyone else experienced this? How did you work through it? I appreciate any ideas or suggestions.
Why am I wanting to run away from something so wonderful? I have never experienced such consideration or kindness or love from a man, or even another human being. It scares me that I could screw things up because I have never been treated with such respect before. How do I handle this? I don't want to lose him. I don't want to scare him off because of the hurt inflicted on my from others.
Anyone else experienced this? How did you work through it? I appreciate any ideas or suggestions.