I have ptsd. I am 17 and last year my girlfriend was killed in a car accident right next to me. We were in the back seat. I pulled her out and she died right in my arms. Am I allowed to say this? Sorry if I am too upfront. I also busted my head in the accident and had internal damage emotionally. It is impossible for me to be happy. I was really in love and miss her. Every night I have nightmares. Then on top of it, I told my best friend what happened because i couldnt hide it with all the nightmares, and he thought I was weird and he started avoiding me until finally I confronted him and flipped out and now he doesnt speak to me. I really liked him too. Im just so confused and dont even know how to live life anymore. I have nobody to talk to. I dont think i can ever heal.