Lucy_In_Recovery
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Hello All,
After suffering with deepresion, anxiety and an eating disorder for 10 years ive finally been diagnosed with PTSD. In a way its terrfying but also a relief to finally be given what I feel is the right diagnosis.
I start thereapy soon and im terrfied... terrfied to bring up memories ive buried for so many years and major years of my life ive forgotten.
The reason im posting is im wantng advice on how to socialise. Im 21 and its halloween... and I just cant bring myself to move and go outside. I have 2 good friends who support me greatly but I cant bring myself to tell aynyone about my condition I hate talking about my feelings or past to anyone. The past few weeks after work I found myself in my room starting at the wall in silence for hours- I came home yesterday at 4pm and didnt move from my bed in silence and didnt move till the next day. I dont want to be clinging onto my other half or mother as I rely on them so much and need t put myself out there but the thought put me into a pnaic attack. Even doing the things I love such as reading, gaming even just being outside seem impossible, I've lost all hope. The only thing keeping me going is applying for my PHD, university has always been my safeline and distracted me from my issues.
Im hoping this forum will allow me to meet other sufferes and meet new people :) Also apologies for the spelling!
After suffering with deepresion, anxiety and an eating disorder for 10 years ive finally been diagnosed with PTSD. In a way its terrfying but also a relief to finally be given what I feel is the right diagnosis.
I start thereapy soon and im terrfied... terrfied to bring up memories ive buried for so many years and major years of my life ive forgotten.
The reason im posting is im wantng advice on how to socialise. Im 21 and its halloween... and I just cant bring myself to move and go outside. I have 2 good friends who support me greatly but I cant bring myself to tell aynyone about my condition I hate talking about my feelings or past to anyone. The past few weeks after work I found myself in my room starting at the wall in silence for hours- I came home yesterday at 4pm and didnt move from my bed in silence and didnt move till the next day. I dont want to be clinging onto my other half or mother as I rely on them so much and need t put myself out there but the thought put me into a pnaic attack. Even doing the things I love such as reading, gaming even just being outside seem impossible, I've lost all hope. The only thing keeping me going is applying for my PHD, university has always been my safeline and distracted me from my issues.
Im hoping this forum will allow me to meet other sufferes and meet new people :) Also apologies for the spelling!
