I'm Crystal, 30, from England, but currently staying in eastern US. I was diagnosed with PTSD almost 4 months ago. Since I'm a bit new to this, I find it hard to write exactly what I should. I can either be extremely blunt, or overly informative, so I'll try my best to find a happy medium... Please bear with me! I was involved in a car accident in April of 2005. I was hit by a drunk, who passed away from his injuries shortly after. It's going to be 2 years now since this happened, and I suppose it's difficult to say that it's all in the past, because I'm presently dealing with physical as well as mental effects. I've had many surgeries on my legs and hip as well as internal damages, but am still disabled, and I suppose my current 'job' is going to physical therapy most days of the week. My job was the most enjoyable thing for me, and I'm not able to do that job anymore (considering it was physical). Things were getting a bit better until October or so... For some reason, my nightmares from the accident returned all at once, flashbacks were frequent, and I find that I'm tense constantly. I feel so terrified that what happened is going to happen again, to either one of my loved ones or myself. Personally, my most difficult part of living with PTSD is the nightmares that I experience. It's as if there is no escape, it's leaving me very restless, and I'd do anything to get them to stop! I've talked to different specialists, but it hasn't been helping so far, that I can tell. I do continue to go in hopes that something will be gradual, eventually, at least. Currently, I'm staying with my sister and her her family in the US. She's a nurse and has been a godsend through everything. I'd really like to be able to live happily again, and to simply move on from all of this. I'm willing to do whatever it is that helps me get to that point. Luckily I've found these forums where it's discussed openly, and knowing that I'm not alone is truly very comforting. I'd be happy to get to know you all!