A couple of weeks ago I had a really, really bad night and ended up calling my doctor for some help. Stress from my husband going back to work (afraid he'd get hurt again), holiday 'junk' and dealing with digging and delving into my traumas. My doctor told me I had exacerbated my symtpoms and was having panic attacks. To be perfectly honest, I felt damn near as bad as I felt when my symptoms first started in July. It really scared me that I was getting worse. Well, I got past that bad point, but I feel like I'm having a hard time getting back to where I was before. Or forward or whatever. I've been fighting depression, feeling tired a lot. I've had intrusive thoughts (I call them my 'OMG, what if...' thoughts), I'm seeing 'stuff' in my peripheral vision some (and why does is always have to be freakin' spiders?? Yuck!) and it feels like my general anxiety level is at a higher level. All stuff that's not been bothering me until lately. Then I'm also having a few moments where I'm feeling better, so maybe I'm pulling out of this (knock on wood!). It's just been so up and down for me. Just wondering if anyone else has had a tough time getting back on track after their symptoms kick up? I still feel like just about everyday something new pops up to learn about. Just how big is this learning curve anyway????