ILoveLife
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I'm not sure if I can call it relapse if I've never been really free from it for more than six months. But anyway..
I used to starve myself since I was a kid, 12 maybe, or 13. Then 4 years ago I started binging.. Eating my emotions.
There was a period between October last year and March this year on which I regained a normal, healthy and curvy weight.
Then a bunch of stressors came along and the progress went out of the window.
It doesn't help at all that my meds make me hungry all the time, changed my metabolism and make weird things to my blood sugar. I have to be really careful with anything that transforms into sugar in the bloodstream because of that, so I can't go around eating carbs or do the regular eating disorder recovery either.
I have to be on a diet, and it has to be low carb. Prescribed by pdoc and gp.
Then I feel like the weakest link, because I can't keep up with it.
If I keep this up I'll end up diabetic.
So I'm feeling like shit. I resumed today my low carb diet, cooked a good low carb lunch and will cook a good low carb dinner too.
There's this adaptation period now, so probably feeling like crap while my body doesn't adjust.
I've discussed this with various Ts but none of them thinks it matters and keep saying it's fine if I'm fat. Which is besides the point, but ok.
Pdoc worries though, and keeps asking me about it but I only see her every 2 or 3 months.
Sorry for the long post.
I don't want to count calories, or weigh my food but maybe I'll need to do it for a while, just until getting used to low carb again.
Anyone else with this particular issue?
I used to starve myself since I was a kid, 12 maybe, or 13. Then 4 years ago I started binging.. Eating my emotions.
There was a period between October last year and March this year on which I regained a normal, healthy and curvy weight.
Then a bunch of stressors came along and the progress went out of the window.
It doesn't help at all that my meds make me hungry all the time, changed my metabolism and make weird things to my blood sugar. I have to be really careful with anything that transforms into sugar in the bloodstream because of that, so I can't go around eating carbs or do the regular eating disorder recovery either.
I have to be on a diet, and it has to be low carb. Prescribed by pdoc and gp.
Then I feel like the weakest link, because I can't keep up with it.
If I keep this up I'll end up diabetic.
So I'm feeling like shit. I resumed today my low carb diet, cooked a good low carb lunch and will cook a good low carb dinner too.
There's this adaptation period now, so probably feeling like crap while my body doesn't adjust.
I've discussed this with various Ts but none of them thinks it matters and keep saying it's fine if I'm fat. Which is besides the point, but ok.
Pdoc worries though, and keeps asking me about it but I only see her every 2 or 3 months.
Sorry for the long post.
I don't want to count calories, or weigh my food but maybe I'll need to do it for a while, just until getting used to low carb again.
Anyone else with this particular issue?