Hello everyone. I was a deputy sheriff in CA for 12 years. An injury to my dominant hand and more recent surgeries to my neck have made it clear I will not return to law enforcement again. As part of my treatment for chronic pain due to the failed spinal surgeries, it was suggested that I start seeing a therapist to help cope with the pain. Over the course of the first few sessions, the therapist diagnosed me with C-PTSD, anxiety, clinical depression, panic disorder and anger management issues. I have been seeing her once a week for over two years along with two types of anti depressants along with my nerve pain meds. I also saw a psychologist for about 8 months to help prepare for two additional surgeries and sessions with relaxation/hypnosis techniques. I also returned to church about 18 months ago after a 30 year absence. Despite all of these treatments, I still suffer panic attacks, nightmares, night terrors and issues with hyper vigilance. I still get angry very easily which often happens with my immediate family. This is the first forum I've joined at the suggestion of my therapist to share my story in the hope that it might help others.