Irton Pike
MyPTSD Pro
I have just started back on a phased reurn to work. I have been on sick leave, officially with "reactive stress" since decemeber, when i had a major argument with my former boss. what sparked that was I asked for a reference and he said he would only give me one if he could include his opinion of my medical history. Jeez! I went pretty ballistic. I was in a real mess at the time and didn't take much poking!
Anyway, I went off sick and had a very supportive GP who put me in touch with the local psychiatric services. I was assessed and referred to the psychologist for CBT but turned down on the grounds that I am still in the same place of work where i was systematically bullied and assaulted and I am still fightiung the same nutter to get my work published. As such i was considered too much of a risk of failure. Bummer. The good news is, that if i can get a different job they will accept me. hmmmmmm!
Anyway, I had time on my hands and access to a councelling service through work that i have been using so I spent 3 months doing CBT with a self help book and my councellor. I ahve been working really hard at it and i have managed to get most of my symptoms in check. Most of the time. I am a lot better than i was. The hyperviggilance and the exagerated startle have gone way down and thank god for that cos i am sick of them!
Coming back to work is very hard. Wow! I am amazed at how difficult it is to keep my mood up. Things had been going so well at home. I even had the kids with me over half term and we all had loads of fun.
I find my reasons for working shaken. I work in a university and for me it used to be about putting something back. But the treatment i got from a serial bully has left that in tatters.
Why do you work?
What is the drive?
Anyway, I went off sick and had a very supportive GP who put me in touch with the local psychiatric services. I was assessed and referred to the psychologist for CBT but turned down on the grounds that I am still in the same place of work where i was systematically bullied and assaulted and I am still fightiung the same nutter to get my work published. As such i was considered too much of a risk of failure. Bummer. The good news is, that if i can get a different job they will accept me. hmmmmmm!
Anyway, I had time on my hands and access to a councelling service through work that i have been using so I spent 3 months doing CBT with a self help book and my councellor. I ahve been working really hard at it and i have managed to get most of my symptoms in check. Most of the time. I am a lot better than i was. The hyperviggilance and the exagerated startle have gone way down and thank god for that cos i am sick of them!
Coming back to work is very hard. Wow! I am amazed at how difficult it is to keep my mood up. Things had been going so well at home. I even had the kids with me over half term and we all had loads of fun.
I find my reasons for working shaken. I work in a university and for me it used to be about putting something back. But the treatment i got from a serial bully has left that in tatters.
Why do you work?
What is the drive?