I'm sorry about the length. This the 1st time I've spoken about this really to anyone. My father responded by asking "why I always ' have to wallow in this'." This was about the 6th time for BP or now CPTSD in over 40 years.
I am 60 yo. I was diagnosed about two months ago with CPTSD by my Psychologist, another she invited in for a consult and my Psychiatrist. They agreed I had enough symptoms to warrant the diagnosis and I've been a bundle of joy ever since. I didn't go there looking for anything like it, but for treatment of my 46 yo BP II and have been seeing both my reg. shrink and Psych about three years, or three times longer than anyone else. My shrink later told me it was like putting together a jigsaw puzzle she didn't know existed or was working on giving, all she was aware of, again, was the BP.
She explained that in reviewing her case files she kept coming across a jumbled mess of out of sequence intrusive violent imagery, short disconnected stories and "humorous" quips" of my time. What she thinks finally cemented it for her was my home layout where I have both my TV and front door about 15° off bore in opposite directions to where I sit when I'm home with my shotgun, in case someone comes through the door so I can protect my GSD.
My question, finally, is whether there is any point in therapy when the trauma is so far removed from today? Reviewing the symptoms is uncanny in how close they fit and how well they explain problems in both employment and personal relationships. I'd like to pursue it, but there's the 50-year gap. Suggestions appreciated. Oh, the traumatization. Beatings, beatdowns with weaponry, etc. She says I'm counterphobic which helps explain why I kept going back for more.
I am 60 yo. I was diagnosed about two months ago with CPTSD by my Psychologist, another she invited in for a consult and my Psychiatrist. They agreed I had enough symptoms to warrant the diagnosis and I've been a bundle of joy ever since. I didn't go there looking for anything like it, but for treatment of my 46 yo BP II and have been seeing both my reg. shrink and Psych about three years, or three times longer than anyone else. My shrink later told me it was like putting together a jigsaw puzzle she didn't know existed or was working on giving, all she was aware of, again, was the BP.
She explained that in reviewing her case files she kept coming across a jumbled mess of out of sequence intrusive violent imagery, short disconnected stories and "humorous" quips" of my time. What she thinks finally cemented it for her was my home layout where I have both my TV and front door about 15° off bore in opposite directions to where I sit when I'm home with my shotgun, in case someone comes through the door so I can protect my GSD.
My question, finally, is whether there is any point in therapy when the trauma is so far removed from today? Reviewing the symptoms is uncanny in how close they fit and how well they explain problems in both employment and personal relationships. I'd like to pursue it, but there's the 50-year gap. Suggestions appreciated. Oh, the traumatization. Beatings, beatdowns with weaponry, etc. She says I'm counterphobic which helps explain why I kept going back for more.
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