I’ve been in test week last week. For me that means studying from 5.30 am till 1.30 am while also have (usually 2) exams every schoolday. So it’s fair to say its been rough. Aside from that I also haven’t been eating too well, sure i have a eating disorder but i also get really nauseous from stress. Everything just got too much till at friday night (when i had just finished the last exam) i passed out helping out in the middle of church. I was out for some time and it took long to ‘recover’ so the doctors that were around sounded concerned and told me to go to the hospital which I did. I spent the night there getting tests done. I have some head trauma but no concussion/ brain bleeding or any mayor body shit just pain and constent nausea and dizziness which i got pain killers for. It sucks that my anxiety drives me this insane and my eating disorder shows up when i think Im recovering. Im physically still recovering but it takes my body longer than a healthy person which was expected but unfortunate. Its so unfair that i work so hard for everything and end up dealing with this shit.
I also haven’t gone to my therapists for a while and won’t be for a while. I know i should but it feels ineffecive and I honestly don’t want to go anymore….
I also haven’t gone to my therapists for a while and won’t be for a while. I know i should but it feels ineffecive and I honestly don’t want to go anymore….