I've been trying to understand why I've been troubled the last couple of days. I've been doing really good lately. It came to me tonight. My mom made a comment about my hair. Sounds like nothing, but I never usually have hair. I shave it off because it's really thick and gets hot, but I've had compliments on my hair before. Then I'd get teased because it's kind of, I don't know, "fluffy" or something. Well, I decided I wanted to grow it out because I never had before. I like it. It looks good. I've been feeling better about myself. Then I go talk to my mom. She asked about my hair, and called me mommy's little girl. How can one jab effect me so much? Now I just feel ugly, and self conscious. Right when I had two days off work. So what did I do? Injure myself over, and over with hateful thoughts. Seems like I undid everything I've done to move forward. I have thick skin usually, but with my family there isn't any skin at all.