It does help me sometimes, but it also tends to make me more dissociated. And since I've begun with EMDR I've had really awful panic attacks after smoking it. Recently I tried using herbs/leaves instead of tabacco and that completely extinguished my panic and reduced my dissociation. I like to use lavender, passionflower, damania and mugwort.
I’ve always been highly dissociative. It’s just a fact of life for me. Weed does enhance it, which I view as a mixed bag. I didn’t start using regularly until well into my 40s, so I speak as someone who had a long existence as a non-user, and I’ve noticed a big difference in my life since I started medicating.
Weed doesn’t just offer a regular escape from my feelings of tension, rage, and self loathing; it also allows me to work on my intrusive ruminations with a moderating quality. While baked, the same ugly thoughts intrude into my brain, but I’ll think differently (less negatively) about them. It’s like the weed is allowing me to access a less self-defeatist way of looking at things. I guess it’s almost like turbo-charged, self-administered CBT/ DBT. Like I’m my own (good, effective) therapist! Sometimes I’m even able to recall some of my weed-facilitated breakthroughs when I’m totally sober and use those realizations to soothe myself when I’m starting to spiral. Doesn’t always work that way—I still struggle a lot—but even just knowing (thanks to weed) that those neural pathways exist, and how it feels when I can access them, and what I’m capable of in terms of moving towards healing, is incredibly therapeutic. Oh, and boy does it help with that beast: insomnia.
FWIW, my understanding of the basis of psychedelic-assisted psychotherapy is that you’re induced into a dissociative state by the substance, and in this state, the brain is more open to being “worked on” therapeutically.
Of course there are some downsides. I’m much less motivated and clear-headed when I’m regularly using. That’s ok, since I’m old now. Glad I didn’t use as a youngster. I don’t think I’d have accomplished nearly as much as I did in life. Plus it can be an expensive habit. I need to start growing my own, I suppose. Wish I had a green thumb.
BTW, for those who wish to partake, my personal recommendation is to consume edibles rather than smoke
I was dependent on smoking weed for two decades. Eventually I was smoking all day long. I was hiding from people and life. I quit 13 months ago and started being honest with people, vulnerable about my dependence, my habit, and all my relationships improved. I sought out therapy and I finally started healing after I stopped smoking.
It helps until it doesn't... I'm trying to figure this out too. Ive been smoking regularly through the day...for the last couple of years. I was wondering how much it was helping so the past week I have only allowed myself to smoke in the morning when I wake and in the evening just before bed...
I also switched to only using vaporizer cartridges so no more RSO or flower.
I like the dissociation sometimes...it takes me out of the world...so it's useful...
I used to smoke it quite often and enjoyed it lots but I was still dissociating just with a warm fuzzy feeling but beware (just my experience) through getting triggered alot during that time while being high I started getting panic attacks every time I smoked and I can`t do it anymore.
I wouldn`t say I miss it but I do regret smoking too much/careless and just not being able to (or rather not wanting to) smoke again.
My advice would be as with everything use responsibly and depending on your circumstances only doing it when already feeling grounded/safe/emotionally stable. Just remember however week it certainly has some psychedelic effects and thus can somehow alleviate the state you were in before. In my case I believed I was too dumb to not listen to my body and just destroyed it for myself
Might be just my case so you do you but sharing is caring or so I heard and you should keep the reeper`s fun forever :D