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Message: <blockquote data-quote="enough" data-source="post: 1771065" data-attributes="member: 27357">I spent some 34 years thinking that marijuana was my drug of choice and that I was holding onto a hard won sobriety so that I could keep my job if given a random urine test. Employer stopped testing for it a month or so ago, I decided I was going to try CBD and the CBG I had heard so much about without getting back into smoking or using THC. That lasted about a week and I tried one of the new strains. Bad high. Like drunkenness without any good qualities, just loss of concentration and motor skills. Tried another strain the next week, maybe worse. The third try was 2 weeks later with one of the highest recommended strains and I felt like I was on a psycho reactive drug-LSD or Psillocybin back in the 80's again, not hallucinating but not trusting my own thoughts about what I was seeing either. Not paranoid, not scared, but no euphoria, no colors or heightened appreciation for music, just "damn, I wish I hadn't smoked that". Still trying the CBD and CBG oils, because I no longer have to fear an accidental transient THC ingestion costing me a job.  Interestingly, that happened locally just a few weeks back and there are now 9 cases including a wrongful death against the supplier that had an employee that mislabel some product. My dissociation has always been kind of "at will", like I get a half dozen warnings before I am off in another place and time, even then it doesn't take me long to realize i am not where I need to be and I have lots of tools and med resources to get back. If THC makes that easier or less frequent, I don't know. My biggest dissociation problem has always been night mares and not knowing where I am when I wake up, and Benzo's stop that Pretty well. I guess i would have to get off the drugs, go back to having a need, and seeing if THC fills it. I doubt it would.My drug of choice is undecided. Anything that makes me feel at ease and having a guitar to play. Another musician to play with. I guess my drug of choice is possibly going to be barbecue and a beer and a guitar and a friend.</blockquote>

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