I just happened to google PTSD forums because it consumes my life and I have no one to talk to about it because people don't want to hear about your sadness and it's difficult to talk about how you cannot rid yourself of the memories on a daily basis of how you lost the things which meant the most to you. And now I have found this forum. Perhaps this can be the beginning of the healing I so desperately need. My trauma may seem so insignificant compared to the horrors others have experienced, but the horrors I experienced are just as devastating to me. So bear with me if my heartbreak seems to be minute compared to what some of you others have been through.