There are so many event in my head that at random seem to just flash before me. They are things I just can't speak of because they are too graphic. I wish I could tell. It hurts so bad to have these ugly things inside but I fear letting them out. Is it wrong to be graphic? Should I keep quiet about the specifics of the things that have happened to me? I feel the secrets will always be mine to carry! I feel like damaged goods. I know I am not in my mind but I hurt inside.