I have a lot going on inside and out. I had my gallbladder removed in January due to stones, hot flashes etc. I recovered from that but still have hot flashes, swollen legs, pain in my lower right lung and...a lump in my breast. I'm not surprised though based on the relentless chronic traumatic stress I'm under. Addressing trauma from the past as well as more recent traumas has sent me into survival mode at the cost of my wellbeing. I'm going to the Drs today but I have a huge dilemma. One if my angry parts had an incident this weekend and scratched my stomach as well as other recent self inflicted marks. I have learned the hard way to keep my medical conditions separate at my pcp office from my psych since it only proves to destroy any hope of being treated like a person. I'm scared for obvious reasons(cancer) but keeping to myself because I don't want sympathy from people who normally don't stay in touch. If tests come back not in my favor, then I'll tell someone. It's as if my already lonely world gets bigger and I'm at a loss...