So I guess I have two questions..
I started somatic mindfulness work a few months ago. Not sure if they have been doing anything really but she reassures me that there’s a lot going on subconsciously still even after the session is complete. I am literally just keeping up with anything that I think may be good for me. But this last session was so very vivid and clear. Prior to my session, I had an experience out at a hiking trail with a good friend. We skipped the gym that day due to nice weather and went to the hiking spot that is my favorite and basically a second home, so I was able to be more “myself” I guess. It was just us there, I dislike busyness. We started doing stair steps on the picnic benches as if we were at the gym and I felt like I was my child self doing things I felt like doing because I could. I just let go of restraints and did whatever even if it probably looked weird. It was a great feeling but also dissociating. it felt like I could be a parent one day. It was magical and I felt like maybe this is what parents feel like when they just look at their child with such pride and happiness in doing whatever the feel. I wrote about it because it just felt so memorable to have such a break through feeling. So when I went to therapy that coming Monday I told my therapist of it and she suggested we do mindfulness (somatic experiencing) around that day. Nearly right away I was able to see my child self playing and doing the same actions as I was doing out with my friend those few days before. (with my eyes closed sort of visualizing) but it was like a memory or dream, like I wasn’t trying to control it, I was just trying to stay with it. It was like I was hypnotized but still aware. My child self would play and I would follow. Looking after her and I was so proud of her. Like I was ready to be a mother which is not something I am consciously ready for. She showed me a house I grew up in. One where things happened in that were uncomfortable but I don’t really remember them. She led me to the woods in front of my old house where I used to play. Then I started floating away from her. Like We were done hanging out.
Has anyone had similar experience like this? Is this where or how my memories may come to light? Or am I being a little too imaginative?
It was such a wonderful feeling to have connected with my younger self like that. I never thought I’d enjoy having children, it just seems like a hurtful experience. Children get hurt and I don’t think I could handle knowing that as an adult.
Also, I get tension headaches and they worsen when I’m stressed. After the session they seemed to be back. But something else I noticed is that they are triggered by the sunlight.. anyone have this or have any suggestions that they use that helps?
I started somatic mindfulness work a few months ago. Not sure if they have been doing anything really but she reassures me that there’s a lot going on subconsciously still even after the session is complete. I am literally just keeping up with anything that I think may be good for me. But this last session was so very vivid and clear. Prior to my session, I had an experience out at a hiking trail with a good friend. We skipped the gym that day due to nice weather and went to the hiking spot that is my favorite and basically a second home, so I was able to be more “myself” I guess. It was just us there, I dislike busyness. We started doing stair steps on the picnic benches as if we were at the gym and I felt like I was my child self doing things I felt like doing because I could. I just let go of restraints and did whatever even if it probably looked weird. It was a great feeling but also dissociating. it felt like I could be a parent one day. It was magical and I felt like maybe this is what parents feel like when they just look at their child with such pride and happiness in doing whatever the feel. I wrote about it because it just felt so memorable to have such a break through feeling. So when I went to therapy that coming Monday I told my therapist of it and she suggested we do mindfulness (somatic experiencing) around that day. Nearly right away I was able to see my child self playing and doing the same actions as I was doing out with my friend those few days before. (with my eyes closed sort of visualizing) but it was like a memory or dream, like I wasn’t trying to control it, I was just trying to stay with it. It was like I was hypnotized but still aware. My child self would play and I would follow. Looking after her and I was so proud of her. Like I was ready to be a mother which is not something I am consciously ready for. She showed me a house I grew up in. One where things happened in that were uncomfortable but I don’t really remember them. She led me to the woods in front of my old house where I used to play. Then I started floating away from her. Like We were done hanging out.
Has anyone had similar experience like this? Is this where or how my memories may come to light? Or am I being a little too imaginative?
It was such a wonderful feeling to have connected with my younger self like that. I never thought I’d enjoy having children, it just seems like a hurtful experience. Children get hurt and I don’t think I could handle knowing that as an adult.
Also, I get tension headaches and they worsen when I’m stressed. After the session they seemed to be back. But something else I noticed is that they are triggered by the sunlight.. anyone have this or have any suggestions that they use that helps?