beatle_bailey
Confident
my head has bin kind of off line lately ,,,,, my emotiuns have bin running wild ,,, I hope I have not Offended any one ,,, if I have please except my appoligies ,,,,
Now down to this day and others that have me in a tissy,,,,
many differant things have bin affecting me like they haven't in years ,,
In other words PTSD is banging on the door ,,, I would rather not answer,,,
but I or we have no coise but to answer or react in one form or another ,,
I have bin reaching out for help in many ways ,,, this forum is only one ,, I just spent over an hour talking to another Vet that I know ,,
I met him in AA { and i know this can even be sensative } but he also has PTSD and like me is an alcy,, any way we were talking about how to free the heart ,soul ,mind , spirit , from the pain that most of us have so deep in side of ourself ,,, I've known him for 20 yrs we both have great respect for eachother ,, I have bin talking to many people that have known me for yrs
and they have seen me in many or all condissions many noot so plesent ,,,
man my spelling suc-s ,,,
I have had to except a lot of thing abot me that I can not change and have let God work on the rest ,, Ptsd I can work on ,,, my friend tell me that I have made great strides in many ways
I have and continue to fight many battales at the same time ,,, it get very tirering ,,, and when my head starts having all these emotions I react be for I can think some times ,,,must of the time I am able to keep control ,, I don't mind letting people I know just how fraggile I am ,,, mainly because I know tere is groth on the other side of all this pain ,,
these are all just thing I have to talk about ,, maybe to reashore myself they are true ,, dose any one out there know or feel the same ,,
I'm headed for a bit of a melt down,,, ,,,have you felt one coming on before ,,, the last time it happened I was in a safe plase ,, and there was 2 people that helped me threw it and they were incredably brave to just come out and sit with me after the tyraid I had just put on in the room s of AA { please remember this site was not hear ,, I had no whear else to go }
can any one feel these thing getting ready to burst
Beatle
Now down to this day and others that have me in a tissy,,,,
many differant things have bin affecting me like they haven't in years ,,
In other words PTSD is banging on the door ,,, I would rather not answer,,,
but I or we have no coise but to answer or react in one form or another ,,
I have bin reaching out for help in many ways ,,, this forum is only one ,, I just spent over an hour talking to another Vet that I know ,,
I met him in AA { and i know this can even be sensative } but he also has PTSD and like me is an alcy,, any way we were talking about how to free the heart ,soul ,mind , spirit , from the pain that most of us have so deep in side of ourself ,,, I've known him for 20 yrs we both have great respect for eachother ,, I have bin talking to many people that have known me for yrs
and they have seen me in many or all condissions many noot so plesent ,,,
man my spelling suc-s ,,,
I have had to except a lot of thing abot me that I can not change and have let God work on the rest ,, Ptsd I can work on ,,, my friend tell me that I have made great strides in many ways
I have and continue to fight many battales at the same time ,,, it get very tirering ,,, and when my head starts having all these emotions I react be for I can think some times ,,,must of the time I am able to keep control ,, I don't mind letting people I know just how fraggile I am ,,, mainly because I know tere is groth on the other side of all this pain ,,
these are all just thing I have to talk about ,, maybe to reashore myself they are true ,, dose any one out there know or feel the same ,,
I'm headed for a bit of a melt down,,, ,,,have you felt one coming on before ,,, the last time it happened I was in a safe plase ,, and there was 2 people that helped me threw it and they were incredably brave to just come out and sit with me after the tyraid I had just put on in the room s of AA { please remember this site was not hear ,, I had no whear else to go }
can any one feel these thing getting ready to burst
Beatle