I feel so alone. I've felt alone for years. I am so isolated and terrified of the outside world that I just stay home. Every time I walk outside my doors or let someone into my life I'm just brought more trauma and I'm terrified, but I can't do this alone. I've come so close to committing suicide recently and I've been so angry and lost. I just want to talk to someone who understands. I feel so completely alone and I don't know what to do. I just want someone who can understand the fear I feel... someone who can look at all I've gone through and understand my reactions to things. I just need a friend. I don't want to be alone anymore.