FauxLiz
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I had an interesting conversation with my T this evening as I continue to try and establish a therapeutic relationship preparing to move forward and attempt CPT. Like pretty much every therapist in my area (bible belt with heavy emphasis on faith and spirituality) my therapist is trained in both secular and faith based therapy and integration in the process. Unless the client brings up faith this T doesn't use it in your session and my faith and spirituality well they have been tested in my life.
So this evening I asked how he could have faith in a higher power when he has to hear and hold the misery, pain and experiences of his clients every day. He promised me that he can take care of himself and that I don't need to worry (which I do because I always try to protect others from myself). But eventually the conversation turned to the question that has haunted me most of my life which is the greatest challenge to my faith. It was this question that brought me here tonight. The only place that I could presume to place this thread under core beliefs/cognitive distortions.
My core belief has always been to question what it was that I did so wrong at such a young age that God decided to punish me and create my own personal hell on earth to live through. I have discussed this in the past with theological scholars and never had an answer that I could accept. My T this evening though turned my question around on me and asked "Have you ever considered what you did so right that Satan feels you are a threat?" This really threw me for a loop, I have never had anyone take my doubt, fear and anger as it relates to faith and make me truly question my question.
So I guess other than wondering if anyone else here has had a similar belief/distortion and even if not what do you think of his version of the question? It has really got thinking and stewing on the idea.
So this evening I asked how he could have faith in a higher power when he has to hear and hold the misery, pain and experiences of his clients every day. He promised me that he can take care of himself and that I don't need to worry (which I do because I always try to protect others from myself). But eventually the conversation turned to the question that has haunted me most of my life which is the greatest challenge to my faith. It was this question that brought me here tonight. The only place that I could presume to place this thread under core beliefs/cognitive distortions.
My core belief has always been to question what it was that I did so wrong at such a young age that God decided to punish me and create my own personal hell on earth to live through. I have discussed this in the past with theological scholars and never had an answer that I could accept. My T this evening though turned my question around on me and asked "Have you ever considered what you did so right that Satan feels you are a threat?" This really threw me for a loop, I have never had anyone take my doubt, fear and anger as it relates to faith and make me truly question my question.
So I guess other than wondering if anyone else here has had a similar belief/distortion and even if not what do you think of his version of the question? It has really got thinking and stewing on the idea.