Thank you everyone for the insights. The last few weeks were a frustrating tailspin and I was feeling so much shame and guilt for being here in this state again. It’s time for another consult with my doctor because what we’ve been doing isn’t working anymore. And again it’s time to ask exactly what level of suffering makes this a debilitating condition. I love to work and it’s good for me to do so but the stress between getting enough hours and trying to find financial corners to cut so I can access mental health care without jeopardizing my ability to support my family is like a tightrope some days. I am so grateful to have been able to vent in a safe space without judgment or being told to just get over myself. I am so happy to have found this community. So again thank you.