I hope this post doesn't sound too bold or whatever because it's referencing spirituality. But I want to address where the source of our strength comes from. The struggle between believers and non-believers. The struggle between whether that strength came from us alone or with the help of "God' holy spirit". If we have left a religious or bible based cult, this inner conflict of where this strength came from, can be absolutely overwhelming! and cause inner angst and distress. I know it has for me. It's caused me to become self-destructive, question my motives and caused a huge crisis of faith which has caused me to question and leave a known cult. That's the plus. The negative part is the self-destructive behaviors and self-doubt and trying to move forward and heal.