RecoveryGuy
Confident
@lostforgottensoul
I admire how open and courageous you are in your recovery. It is something to be greatly treasured.
I relate to how being sexual with animals can affect a person. I found that it is incredibly shaming, especially because of how the body responds (for my co-abused partners this was a multi-orgasmic response, for me it was being aroused by eroticism of their response and the situation as a whole). This lead me to think that it was "good" and "I liked it." Now I see that differently, but at that time it was just an "amazing" "pleasurable" experience. It was similar for the women who were taking the dog in them, the way their body responded was so powerful they felt they were "made for it" and with a person adding to that by telling them they were it was a very powerful experince in shaping our sexuality. It takes a long time for that to fade away. But it can still be triggered and that triggers the shame like I was doing it all again, even though I am not.
with admiration
RecoveryGuy
I admire how open and courageous you are in your recovery. It is something to be greatly treasured.
I relate to how being sexual with animals can affect a person. I found that it is incredibly shaming, especially because of how the body responds (for my co-abused partners this was a multi-orgasmic response, for me it was being aroused by eroticism of their response and the situation as a whole). This lead me to think that it was "good" and "I liked it." Now I see that differently, but at that time it was just an "amazing" "pleasurable" experience. It was similar for the women who were taking the dog in them, the way their body responded was so powerful they felt they were "made for it" and with a person adding to that by telling them they were it was a very powerful experince in shaping our sexuality. It takes a long time for that to fade away. But it can still be triggered and that triggers the shame like I was doing it all again, even though I am not.
with admiration
RecoveryGuy