Its two years tomorrow since everything went wrong for me. I know nothing that day could happen differently in the circumstances given, and it was just a series of events that led to someone dying. I still blame everything that happened on me as the rescue dive team leader. I cant look myself in the mirror without seething in resentment, I get periods where I feel everybody hates me so I don't go out and about half of the nightmares end with everything being my fault. Im not even sure if this is PTSD related or if its just guilt. my therapist is at her wits end with this issue (there are others) and i don't know what i can do to stop this feeling. Anybody have any recommendations?