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since being diagnosed with ptsd over 2 years ago drs have tried buspar and zoloft. both did absolutely nothing to help any symptoms. my condition is due to a protracted campaign of stalking and harassment hat hasnt stopped yet.
pcp recommended zyprexa or seroquel on recommendation from a psychiatrist I was forced to see on a temporary detention order (someone called police and said I was suicidal- they dragged me to an er, refused to believe I have ptsd & was already under a drs care and decided my trauma hx wasn't real, that I was delusional and psychotic -) after she realized I didnt have psychosis, it was still her suggestion that a second generation atypical antipsychotic might reduce my hypervigilance and panic attacks. some of mine lead to dissociative fugue states.
I drive during these, or walk miles looking for somewhere "safe". I have no recall of events during these blackouts. I agreed to try the seroquel at a very low dose but have been extremely concerned about using such a strong medication off label.
the side effects have been awful. I wanted to quit two weeks in but his nurse begged me to wait it out and "power through the first month to 6 weeks" saying those would decrease and we needed to find a therapeutic dosage. I gained over twenty lbs the first couple weeks. headaches, nausea, blurred vision, frequent tachycardia, brain fog and HEAVY sedation. most have tapered off other than the brain fog and extreme drowsiness. the weight is still on. I also had a surgical procedure last week and the ekg showed incomplete right bundle branch block. also had one after er hold, er staff nailed me with massive amounts of IM ziprasidone with doses much too close together - that IRbBB showed up first then. it wasnt present prior to the hospital overdosing me on geodon
. started first 5 days on 25 mg, went to 50 mg a day after that.
the 9th makes 6 weeks and I see him then. I don't feel like its done anything for the ptsd symptoms other than cause sedation and I can get sleeping meds with a lot less side effects (not that I want them, I feel more scared knowing I was asleep and not guarding against threats) I've had several really bad panic attacks since starting including two with lost hours, finding myself somewhere else. I was hesitant to even try this after the adverse reaction to the geodon injections.
I have a strong feeling he's going to want to increase it to "try to find the right dose". I'm very torn about what to do - stop? adjust? continue? his nurse said they can add other drugs to abate effects like weight and metabolism problems but I really dont want to end up in a cascade effect of taking drugs to deal with problems caused by drugs. if he stops it, he might just want to switch to something else and then we've got a whole new set of fresh side effects. kicking it up may do that too. f it worked and stopped the worst attacks, Id probably be willing to stay on it but who knows if it ever will or at what cost? I want to feel better. I dont want to cause more problems doing it.
Im very torn. which of course causes more anxiety. anyone have similar experience to share???
pcp recommended zyprexa or seroquel on recommendation from a psychiatrist I was forced to see on a temporary detention order (someone called police and said I was suicidal- they dragged me to an er, refused to believe I have ptsd & was already under a drs care and decided my trauma hx wasn't real, that I was delusional and psychotic -) after she realized I didnt have psychosis, it was still her suggestion that a second generation atypical antipsychotic might reduce my hypervigilance and panic attacks. some of mine lead to dissociative fugue states.
I drive during these, or walk miles looking for somewhere "safe". I have no recall of events during these blackouts. I agreed to try the seroquel at a very low dose but have been extremely concerned about using such a strong medication off label.
the side effects have been awful. I wanted to quit two weeks in but his nurse begged me to wait it out and "power through the first month to 6 weeks" saying those would decrease and we needed to find a therapeutic dosage. I gained over twenty lbs the first couple weeks. headaches, nausea, blurred vision, frequent tachycardia, brain fog and HEAVY sedation. most have tapered off other than the brain fog and extreme drowsiness. the weight is still on. I also had a surgical procedure last week and the ekg showed incomplete right bundle branch block. also had one after er hold, er staff nailed me with massive amounts of IM ziprasidone with doses much too close together - that IRbBB showed up first then. it wasnt present prior to the hospital overdosing me on geodon
. started first 5 days on 25 mg, went to 50 mg a day after that.
the 9th makes 6 weeks and I see him then. I don't feel like its done anything for the ptsd symptoms other than cause sedation and I can get sleeping meds with a lot less side effects (not that I want them, I feel more scared knowing I was asleep and not guarding against threats) I've had several really bad panic attacks since starting including two with lost hours, finding myself somewhere else. I was hesitant to even try this after the adverse reaction to the geodon injections.
I have a strong feeling he's going to want to increase it to "try to find the right dose". I'm very torn about what to do - stop? adjust? continue? his nurse said they can add other drugs to abate effects like weight and metabolism problems but I really dont want to end up in a cascade effect of taking drugs to deal with problems caused by drugs. if he stops it, he might just want to switch to something else and then we've got a whole new set of fresh side effects. kicking it up may do that too. f it worked and stopped the worst attacks, Id probably be willing to stay on it but who knows if it ever will or at what cost? I want to feel better. I dont want to cause more problems doing it.
Im very torn. which of course causes more anxiety. anyone have similar experience to share???