If Structural Dissociation wasn't just a theory, I would say that I am the poster child for SD. It explains so much to me as to how I trigger, process and then release.
When I am triggered into a 'part', I know the feeling. I get it now. I am not consciously saying at the time 'I am in part' but my body knows it. My shoulders hunch, I can't think properly, and I usually end up horizontal after what seems like a battle to 'act normal'.
My body MAKES me process. I recognize that is what I am doing when I am put into these states. I am trying my hardest to be happy that it is doing so.... that it is trying to help me get to the light at the end of the trauma tunnel.
I have noticed that all the way along when I have been 'in part', that I will drop physically and my head races around 'reorganizing' things. Or I will sleep and have dreams.
Last night I was triggered into such a state again. Alot happened yesterday, one thing being a potential 'discussion' in the kitchen which is a hot spot for me. I reacted all day and was fighting it, dropped last night, woke up this morning and it came to me. It was just a voice....and a knowing voice. "it was the kitchen".
f*ck! Of course! Of course it was the kitchen! Got it! Thank you!
My question is, are any of you able to tap into a 'knowing voice' or a 'knowing something' that lets you know with clarity and certainty what triggered a reaction? How do these answers come to you?
When I am triggered into a 'part', I know the feeling. I get it now. I am not consciously saying at the time 'I am in part' but my body knows it. My shoulders hunch, I can't think properly, and I usually end up horizontal after what seems like a battle to 'act normal'.
My body MAKES me process. I recognize that is what I am doing when I am put into these states. I am trying my hardest to be happy that it is doing so.... that it is trying to help me get to the light at the end of the trauma tunnel.
I have noticed that all the way along when I have been 'in part', that I will drop physically and my head races around 'reorganizing' things. Or I will sleep and have dreams.
Last night I was triggered into such a state again. Alot happened yesterday, one thing being a potential 'discussion' in the kitchen which is a hot spot for me. I reacted all day and was fighting it, dropped last night, woke up this morning and it came to me. It was just a voice....and a knowing voice. "it was the kitchen".
f*ck! Of course! Of course it was the kitchen! Got it! Thank you!
My question is, are any of you able to tap into a 'knowing voice' or a 'knowing something' that lets you know with clarity and certainty what triggered a reaction? How do these answers come to you?