coraxxx
Policy Enforcement
Hi there I guess this is a very widespread problem.
I have really a hard time starting chores and recently it's gone worse; not only it's hard starting but it's hard continuing. Previously I could wait for starting and would do everything for the next hours, but now I just wash one miserable pot and feel compelled to go back to bed.
This happens even though I'm in a good mood or actually wanting to clean and bear with me, I find it quite pleasurable. I like to wash clean and do stuff right, I'd like to understand why it seems that an external force is pushing me back to bed.
I get agitated and dizzy and feel like I have to go back to bed. Not as much as I have a sense of impending doom or anything, there are no feelings in particular out of "I really want to do this thing but I really cannot right now, back to the duvet I go."
Then obviously in bed I keep fighting to manage to get out.
I know this week has been very draining for me for various reasons but I'm tired to struggle with this issue since ever. I have had a lot of bad experiences with cleaning (aka being used as a mini house slave and after at my evil ex being yelled at and threatened for not being a raging Cleaning Maniac like he was, while myself being super depressed and barely living).
But I don't feel like I'm even clearly associating that in my head when I struggle. I'm assuming it has something to do with that. I guess I just freeze then find myself back in bed and be like ffs not again!!
And it extends to everything. I struggle doing chores that I know last 5 minutes and will make me feel much better. It's as if as a part of me does actually want to sit in filth like a raccoon on the top of a garbage bin.
It's maddening.
What are your cleaning hacks to tame the inner raccoon?
I have really a hard time starting chores and recently it's gone worse; not only it's hard starting but it's hard continuing. Previously I could wait for starting and would do everything for the next hours, but now I just wash one miserable pot and feel compelled to go back to bed.
This happens even though I'm in a good mood or actually wanting to clean and bear with me, I find it quite pleasurable. I like to wash clean and do stuff right, I'd like to understand why it seems that an external force is pushing me back to bed.
I get agitated and dizzy and feel like I have to go back to bed. Not as much as I have a sense of impending doom or anything, there are no feelings in particular out of "I really want to do this thing but I really cannot right now, back to the duvet I go."
Then obviously in bed I keep fighting to manage to get out.
I know this week has been very draining for me for various reasons but I'm tired to struggle with this issue since ever. I have had a lot of bad experiences with cleaning (aka being used as a mini house slave and after at my evil ex being yelled at and threatened for not being a raging Cleaning Maniac like he was, while myself being super depressed and barely living).
But I don't feel like I'm even clearly associating that in my head when I struggle. I'm assuming it has something to do with that. I guess I just freeze then find myself back in bed and be like ffs not again!!
And it extends to everything. I struggle doing chores that I know last 5 minutes and will make me feel much better. It's as if as a part of me does actually want to sit in filth like a raccoon on the top of a garbage bin.
It's maddening.
What are your cleaning hacks to tame the inner raccoon?