SunnyWeather
Learning
Hi,
I remember going to the doctor as a child, only months after the trauma (not all of it) took place, for a diagnosis. I had several sessions with a doctor to examine whether I had PTSD or not. During these sessions my abusive mother would lie about how bad my symptoms were and how much I was suffering. I remember both of my abusers forcing me to go along with not talking about my trauma. I remember being blamed for the costs of healthcare, and being bullied by my sister for showing symptoms. I was traumatized because I had been sexually abused by my grandmother and was in a car accident. I never received any help for it from the people who should have taken care of me. The only thing they made me experience was more violence, more shame, more guilt, more fear. I am filled to the brim with anger right now. I can't believe that this f*cking shit happened to me. I want to scream and punch a hole in the wall. Can anyone relate to this? I feel insane.
I remember going to the doctor as a child, only months after the trauma (not all of it) took place, for a diagnosis. I had several sessions with a doctor to examine whether I had PTSD or not. During these sessions my abusive mother would lie about how bad my symptoms were and how much I was suffering. I remember both of my abusers forcing me to go along with not talking about my trauma. I remember being blamed for the costs of healthcare, and being bullied by my sister for showing symptoms. I was traumatized because I had been sexually abused by my grandmother and was in a car accident. I never received any help for it from the people who should have taken care of me. The only thing they made me experience was more violence, more shame, more guilt, more fear. I am filled to the brim with anger right now. I can't believe that this f*cking shit happened to me. I want to scream and punch a hole in the wall. Can anyone relate to this? I feel insane.
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