Do you ever feel like you're no good at the therapy thing? I can't always put things in to words or even say how I'm feeling....this has nothing to do with my therapist, she's really lovely. Today we spoke about what I wrote on here about watching something happening to myself and although I didn't go into details about it but did say it was to do with my ex, she said the same as you lot about dissociation. I just really find it hard to explain how I feel or why....She equates it to getting to the top of a diving board, getting to the edge and then stopping. She knows I do better with writing, so she wants me to write down my thoughts/feelings of why I'm finding it so hard to talk about things and how that's leaving me feeling like it's all me, I'm the one keeping myself stuck. She said shame but I think there's much more to it than that. I said how I think it's going slowly and she said I'm doing well, but I guess she has to say that....if she wants me to carry and keep paying her (maybe be me being a bit cynical there) I don't know. I feel like i go off track and babble on about different things too, that maybe aren't even relevent. She says I'm gutsy, that I won't just go along and agree with her, if it doesn't feel right and I guess she's right. She mentioned drawing but I said I can't draw and she just said how I could draw stick men/mark make with colour