gealach
MyPTSD Pro
I'm ashamed to admit that since my PTSD journey began in 2014/2015, I've gained at least 80 pounds. I don't even know what I weight right now, but I'm short at only 5'2" and I know I'm over 200 pounds, so I'm in the obese category or potentially morbidly obese. I'm concerned about how much more I'll hate myself and feel disgusting when I look and see a high number on the scale, so I'm not looking. And my scale broke anyway when I moved, so....
The weight gain is due to a combination of things: the meds I was forced onto in 2016, depression and not being able to get my arse off the couch for months when I was taken off work, physical injuries and some permanent deficits from those, the inability to enjoy anything that I enjoyed pre-PTSD events (anhedonia I think it's called), and some kind of serious mental block around the gym and working out.
Pre-PTSD I was a body builder, working out 2 or 3 times a day, carefully watching and calculating macros.... I was fit. I had started training with a goal of competing in crossfit and Spartans.
Now I'm out of breath just walking up the stairs and I look like a Hobbit (minus the hairy oversized feet of course). That's a long way to fall. At my age, I don't think I can ever train my way back into that kind of shape, even if I did just magically like working out again and lose the gym mental block.
Anyway, from reading around the forum I see I'm not the only one experiencing weight gain during PTSD (whether due to meds or other factors). So hopefully this can be a place for us to support each other.
The weight gain is due to a combination of things: the meds I was forced onto in 2016, depression and not being able to get my arse off the couch for months when I was taken off work, physical injuries and some permanent deficits from those, the inability to enjoy anything that I enjoyed pre-PTSD events (anhedonia I think it's called), and some kind of serious mental block around the gym and working out.
Pre-PTSD I was a body builder, working out 2 or 3 times a day, carefully watching and calculating macros.... I was fit. I had started training with a goal of competing in crossfit and Spartans.
Now I'm out of breath just walking up the stairs and I look like a Hobbit (minus the hairy oversized feet of course). That's a long way to fall. At my age, I don't think I can ever train my way back into that kind of shape, even if I did just magically like working out again and lose the gym mental block.
Anyway, from reading around the forum I see I'm not the only one experiencing weight gain during PTSD (whether due to meds or other factors). So hopefully this can be a place for us to support each other.