finally listening to what my body wants and needs. I am forever trying to learn how to inhabit my body it can be a very dysfunctional relationship my head often wants to walk out on it. at one point I had decided that I must knock my self in to my body kicking and screaming. I started going to swimming group . it was ok at first when I was just paddling around it does not get any less intense as time goes on though more so really. I reached a point of sweet surrender yesterday and decided I need to do exercise my body wants and needs not the exercise I think looks good...I have had enough of battering my self...if it aint fun and it aint relaxing I am not doing it any more....I think my body deserves it.........btw not saying swimming does not work just saying it does not work for me.