It's been 14 years since I last spoke to police about my ex and back then it was in regards to my then 4 year old being molested by him. We went through with the interview but there wasn't enough to charge him. We put it behind us as best we could and got on with it. Fast forward and out of the blue a few months ago a detective called me asking about my daughter saying her case had crossed her desk and if she was interested in making a statement again. It was a shock for both of us. She agreed to meet her so we went in. My daughter said she will be willing to give a formal statement on one condition, that I make one first in regards to the sexual abuse I suffered at the hands of this man. To say I felt thrown under a bus is an understatement. I've never been able to talk about this fully with anyone let alone the police. I feel that I need to and want to but all those feelings are coming back now that have been dormant for so long. Im facing my past that I thought id left behind but now I feel like I'm back to square 1. Im a bit of a mess.